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Today it's raining. It's nice as we have not had much rain this summer. The cool air feel much kinder then the blistering air that just left us.
This morning we talked about jealousy during our coffee. street kids, I noticed learn this at a very early age and believe that using these hatefull taticts, is the way to aquire what they want.
We didn't have enough time to go deeply into the subject. We discussed the energy and how it feels, that jealousy creates and how ill this energy can make both the victom and the jealous person.
We ended the discussion with the decision to watch the movie "Amadas" as there is one great display of how a friend and musician can even kill, with the energies derived from jealousy.
We talked about how every new buch of kids, comes in with the same issues on moral and ethical levels. This tell us that maybe since parents eilther don't understand the value of these subjects or just don't teach their children, for whatever reason,the kids should be taught these things in school or pre-school.

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My Daily log!
Why are People so Cold Hearted:
I tried for months to communicate with a particular person regarding the way we feel towards a situation we both found ourselves in.
With my heart in my hand,I worked to be kind and word things in a caring manner.
What a fool I was. Now my heart is sliced, by the ugliness of his nasty, hatefull words and actions.
I know I will mend but there was no reason for his horrid behavour at all.
As hard as I worked to be kind and gentle he worked to tear my heart out of my body.
This person whom had so little regard for my feelings pretends to care for people daily and gets appreciation while he stabbs us all in the back.
People be very carefull you are not giving kindness, love,caring and appreciation to snakes that only use yu to feel better inside themselves!
A person whom truly wishes to help others and care for others does not need or wish to be glorified for their good deeds.
Anymore then a smile and full hearted thank-you is too much.
Be shure that you appreciaate others help but do not put them on a pedestal as that can enable co-dependance and other emotional illness derived from ego!

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Welcome to my life!

Why Do Some Have and Some seem Not to Have?
Gut instincts and feelings!

writen by Angel Femia of Lovecry

Have you ever wondered why some people's instincts or gut feelings work better then
others? Or
why some people can pick up on others feelings and thoughts when others, including our
medical
professionals can't and continually tell us we can't, then they just assume we, {that
those of us who
do} are just hearing voices, out of illusion, or are just plane crazy?
I know that I am one of those who's instincts and gut feelings {telepathy} does work. All
my
life the gift was within me, but I was constantly being frightened and instructed to
ignore it.
Due to this, I have been looked upon as being nuts, crazy, manipulator, and illusionary,
only
because I refuse to turn off the great gifts God bestowed upon me and us all, and become
a good
little Social Robot, by conforming into the mispreconceptions of our Social Human Race
or our human
belief systems.
My doctors tried to manipulate my mind, {through shock treatments and medications in
hopes that
I would just forget about it} as my family and friends worked towards pressuring me
through
degradation, into believing that I was unable to really know and hear when God is
messaging me,
{let alone other creatures of God} or I was just not good enough for God to even answer
my
questions and prayers. Is this not a lack of faith?
At the same time the Priest at our church tells me that God answers all prayers and all
questions, {follow God and we will be saved}. Then instructs me to listen to my parents
and the
professionals, who are working to help me. Is this not a double message, which leads to
mind
control? Is that truly not a lack of faith, on their part?
After all that, I decided to trust myself. This was not an easy task considering the
confused
state my mind was now in. I proceeded in any event.
What I found was that yes we all have the ability to receive and send messages through
our minds
and souls, but some of us are blocked with pent up emotional torment due to not dealing
with
past issues, resenting those whom had hurt us as apposed to forgiving them, and letting
go of
yesterday.
I now had many questions and it seemed to me that the place to ask these questions would
be be
my doctors. Upon doing this I found that these doctors had no answers or advice except to

repeatedly tell me to try to forget about it, as this is not the way of the human mind,
in their
viewpoint.
When I explained, that God is my guide, I pray and these prayers are answered and that if
I
asked God a question , God always answers my questions, {if we have faith God does talk
to us
all through our soul or gut instincts and feelings,which flows into our minds and changes
into
words} they completely gave up on me. It seemed to me that I scared them.
Still I had to find some answers and the only place I could find any was talking to God.
God
lead me to Joan, my mentor of eight years. Joan helped me to see that, yes I was talking
to God
and was very strong with telepathy {I discovered I have the abilities of a physic} but I
had
emotions from my past, distorting the messages as they were traveling from my soul to my
mind.
This Joan explained would take psychotherapy or dealing properly with my past issues and
clearing all the pent up hidden memories and emotions I was holding inside. We got right
to
work.
Once this was done she showed me the art of forgiveness and helped me to do just that. I
began
to forgive myself, and all those who hurt me or seemed to hurt me in any way, throughout
my
entire life.
Finally I had to let go of the past entirely and get on with today. This does not mean I
could
not have good memories, only that I was not to try to recreate yesterday or it's events
today,
The place we all feel so comfortable, {comfort zone} had to go and a fresh new start had
to
begin. My thinking had to be changed into a more positives note and my lifestyle had to
become
of a more upbeat nature.
Today my instincts or gut feelings don't only work but, they are crystal clear and almost
always
right. They are so strong and clear that I am now able to read anyone whether they are in
the
same room with me, across the ocean or the universe. In other words if someone even
thinks of me
for a second I receive that message.
With proper help and therapy we are all able to do this to some degree. Some are stronger
then
other at this but we are all given the gift. It is a gift from God. Don't let this world
and
other people's fears take that from you. Being a Social Robot is what makes us all sick.

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POETRY!!!


"You and I!"
By Angel Femia

You said you know
The ways of love
I believed
You said you saw
The truth in life
I believed
You said you felt
This love for me
Again I believed

I was a fool
Your ways wew so wrong
And so was I to trust
I was so blind
There was no truth
My eyes see only darkness
The agony took over
I trusted your love
And believed in mine

My heart still cries!




"Is It?"
By Angel Femia

Twisted dreams
Winding and choaking
In the name of love
Seductive thoughts
Sexual energies rising
We call this love
No caring at all
A foggy glow
But this is love

Dreams in fear
Emotions rising
In the name of love
Warried thoughts
Destructive words
Tempers flairing
Yes this is love
Raging possession
Tourtering goodbyes
Now is this love?




I See You Now
By Angel Femia

My eyes were blinded
By your shine
You produced with seduction
I fell into you

My mind turned off
But to think of you
Our bodies entwined
I locked into you

You tourtered me
Crushed my heart
Still following you
I obsess over you

I crash to the ground
It brakes my mind
You kick me down further
I twist out of you

I see you now
In your uglyness
I tear off your mask
And run far from you!



"And When!"
by Angel Femia

And when will you sing
Your song of love
Are you waiting for the clouds
To fall from above
And when will you show
The love inside
When the stars explode
High in the sky
And when will you see
The light in your eyes
When the moon above
Crashes into you head

And when will you finally
Say the words you fear
I love you, I love you,
Yes, I love you my dear!



"In The Way!"
By Angel Femia

In the way you look at me
I feel a buzzing glow
In the way you speak to me
I sence a warmth you know
In the way to comfort me
I feel a caring so

In the way I look aat you
I feel myself to rise
In the way I speak to you
I see a wormth in my sigh
In the comfort of your touch
I think I love you, Why?



"I You Could Speak!"
by Angel Femia

If you could speak
I bet you'd say
The dew on my peddles
Brighten my day

If you could think
Would you think of the way
Our world is dying
And why is it this way?

If you could walk
Would you chase us down
Trying to let us know
A better way could be found

If the flower could speak
I know what it would say
First thank you God
For my life each day

Then in midst of the pain
Us humans do cause
I know they are praying
That we'll think with a pause

We were given the job
Of caring for this world
If all is in pain
What are we doing wrong?



"Live Now Today"
By Angel Femia

Moving with time
Mind opening
To fears from yesterday
Penetrating pain
Cleansing my wounds

River waters flow
Swiftly in the rain
Washing the blood that has dried
Stuck on my mind
Clearing the stains

Sun shines worm
Directly on each cut
Extracting the poisone cores
Found just inside
Healing all sores

Now open your mind
Let out the pain
Wash away the stains
Flush out the venem
Live now Today!

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